So I've been having a bad day...really bad...went out to a park for lunch and just cried. Called H once--no answer, so I left him a mesage. "Just calling to say hi!"

Couldn't quit crying. And I just wanted to talk to him so badly... So I called him again. No answer. I didn't necessarily expect "my" H--just wanted so friendly chit chat. Kept crying. I knew I needed to go back to work soon, and I called him again. I know...

Anyway, H finally did answer. Said he'd been trying to sleep in, since he works tonight. Oops. I apologized--I had forgotten. Told him I was just bored on lunch, and wanted to say hi.

He was pretty cheery. We talked about how it had warmed up today. (Woohoo, it's the 40's outside! ) I told him I was at a park enjoying the weather. Didn't let on that I was upset. I did roll me eyes a few times while we were talking. It is so much easier to hide things over the phone! LOL

I told him I was headed back to work, and he told me that I could talk to him for a few minutes longer. ( ) So we chatted while I drove.

He talked about how it might be helpful to me to get one of those cell headsets like he was using. I agreed. (Even though I hate ear pieces like that...they just hurt me...) He also was talking about his plan for after the GED and going to school--said he wants to for college here soon, and he thought his trip would be a good opportunity to check out colleges in Arizona. Which I told him was a great idea--and I really do think so! I'm glad he seems so motivated on this. He quipped that it's a good thing that he has friends out there--and made some comment about me not needing to accuse him.

I was offended--and asked, kind of defensive, what I had said this time. He apologized, agreed that I hadn't said anything. We both dropped the subject.

Chatted for a bit more. He mentioned (again) that he's having dinner with friends. I said I remembered. He thanked me for being understanding--said that this is exactly what he needs. That actually made me feel much, much better.

If I knew for sure this was just some emotional phase or some junk like that, I wouldn't be nearly so worried. We all have our moods. I'm just so gun shy...it really has me flipped out.

I am glad I got to talk to him. No, he wasn't his normal sappy self...but that's fine...he just didn't sound so distant and cranky.

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