Okay, Nevanna - I just have to say something here. Look back over the last months postings on your thread, and you tell me - are your H's ACTIONS matching his WORDS????
Let's get real here - he's telling you all these things about how he wants you, wants to have a baby with you, etc. etc. Meanwhile he is maintaining a separate social life ( a "night out with the boys" is okay once in a while, but otherwise, married couples should socialize together - "friends of his own" is a recipe for disaster in my book.) He is staying out all night without calling you. He's calling some woman in AZ and instead of apologizing for doing anything that might make you even THINK he's being unfaithful, he gets mad at you for snooping. He's taking an extended vacation without you (if he's really happy to be back, he'd be wanting to take YOU with him somewhere - trust me).
I just have a really, really bad feeling about all this, Nevanna. Please don't make a baby with this guy right now. I think he's a very bad bet for father material right now. You are young - don't mess your life up by having a baby with an adulterous, immature, lying man who is NOT doing the things necessary to repair your R.
Yes, yes, I understand about the guilt thing - but honestly, I think there's something else going on here. An addiction of some sort maybe? (drugs or sex?) When a guy tells you he's not good enough for you - sometimes he's right, Nevanna. You have your whole life ahead of you. Take your time. Insist on real change in his behaviors, not pretty words. If he's not willing to do the things necessary to make you feel safe that he's not cheating on you now - then you probably shouldn't assume he's not cheating on you.
