Yesterday was...interesting.

I pulled back. Waaaay back. I'm a very affectionate person. Usually this means I touch his shoulder when I walk by, or I'm folding laundry on the couch next to him.

So, I stopped doing that. I wasn't ignoring him, but I wasn't making any first moves, either. When he would talk to me, I would answer. But, other than that, I made sure to do my own thing.

His mood was all over the place. He was grumpy and irritable early in the day. Lots of getting angry and stuff that just didn't matter--say, the video game. But he came back from the gym pretty cheery. So I went with it. Laughed when he was dancing around to goofy music.

When he sat down at the computer, I gave him a nice back rub. I could tell he enjoyed it. Although he said I didn't have to "pamper" him.

Did a lot of house cleaning. I had originally planned on going out with BIL2. H said he didn't want to go, so I was going to, anyway. Well, when BIL2 called, I told him H wasn't going, so I wanted to. BIL2 got a little funny, said it was a "guy thing." And, basically, there went my plans for the night. Poof.

Called a FF friend of mine, but she didn't answer. I thought about visiting another FF, but she lives an hour away...and I still don't have my license reinstated yet. H kept asking me if I was going out. Sheesh.

So I decided to go dancing. By myself. (This is a total change for me... )

Dyed my hair while I was cleaning. Our bathroom looks really nice now. My hair...eh...not what I hoped. H likes it. I wanted red, and boy, is it red. Kind of reminds me of a crayon. And it really clashes with my eyebrows. Ah, well. I think I've dyed it too many times... I'm going to leave it this way, but think I'll get one of those stripping kits to get all of the dye stuff out of it. Maybe put it back to it's normal color for awhile.

H was a little disapointed that I dyed it without him. We had originally planned to do our hair at the same time. I told him we could do his when I got home.

Tried to get MIL to go out with me, but she said it was too cold. Oh well.

So, I fixed my hair, and got dressed. H told me I looked nice. Sounded kind of wistful.

Before I left, he had this wistful look on his face. Told me he couldn't imagine being without me.

I debated giving him a kiss before I left, like normal. Didn't.

I had only been gone, maybe, 10 minutes when he called me. Wanted me to spell something for him.

The club was pretty busy, considering the snow. I talked to BIL2 shortly before I went in--he wanted to apologize if he had hurt my feelings. I told him it was okay. Well, he called like three more times after I got in there, but I just didn't answer. No VM, so it must not have been important.

I didn't drink. Didn't want to spend the money, and didn't think it was a good idea, anyway, since I was alone. (Although H did know where I was going.)

H called while I was there. I had to go into the restroom so he could hear me. Said his family had called him to yell at him for "allowing" me to go out on my own. Sheesh. And then he asked me to spell something else. lol

Tried dancing with a couple of people. Realized that I had actually forgotten what I was doing. Sheesh. And...I didn't like it. It felt weird. Like I shouldn't have. Which I didn't understand, because I have been out dancing with other people before. Just random people at the club. H and I both agree that just dancing is no big deal.

I didn't want to go home. So I just grabbed a chair in the corner, and enjoyed the music and atmosphere and being out of the house for awhile. Had to fend off some guys.

I left before closing, walked out when a bunch of people were leaving. I was parked almost right in front of the door, anyway. Drove home pretty slow from the snow.

H was actually asleep when I got home. I got ready for bed, and climbed in. He asked me to hold him, so I did.

So...interesting night...got to run, more later.

Last edited by Nevanna; 01/16/05 09:59 PM.
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