Hey NSN, thanks for stopping by... I'll see if I can sneak in a post while H is in the other room...

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I guess, for me, especially since I'm QT, it just appeared to me that he preferred to spend more time at the gym than with me. ...



I used to feel that way. I actually don't anymore...a lot of the time, we go the gym together. (I'm in good shape, too. ) sigh Honestly, I don't know why this bothers me. I think it's one of my last remaining triggers. He used to talk out the door when I was still having a horrible time dealing with things...I would be in absolute tears... He also ditched working out with me at the gym to take more time there with psycho. (Before they moved in together.) The whole thing just, on some days, gives me all kinds of weird feelings. Still trying to calm down on this one...

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I've really learned to "treat" myself these past 9 months, something I've never really done before. They don't have to be big "treats," but just things that give me pleasure and are enjoyable. What a difference it makes!



You know, as much as I know this, I still have a hard time doing it. I mean, I am putting waaaay too much time into planning my little getaway. My one day getaway. Sheesh. (BTW, did something just for me last night. )

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Can you ask him what specifically it is that you do that he perceives as critical?



You know, I have tried. He just keeps repeating that I make him feel like he can't do anything. sigh That doesn't help me much. I tried asking him what I said or did, and he just repeats. Again. (I'll get back to this in my journal, I think I may have figured it out.)

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What can you do to get back to the calm mindset?



Um, I seem to have calmed down a lot now. I don't know if this makes any sense, but I just pictured how I felt when I had myself under control and was more detached from his personal drama.

Whoops, gotta run...going to bleach that streak out of H's hair now.

[color:"purple"]Nevanna[/color]