Well, I'm glad it helps. Seriously...time. Just give it time.

I've had to come to grips with the fact that I may never understand the "why" behind it all. I don't think H knows, so there's no way for me to know. I mean, I can tell you all the factors that lead up to it...but don't have any idea why the actual PA happened, or what was going on in his head. Does that make sense?

You'll find, though, it will be less and less important to you over time.

[color:"purple"]Nevanna[/color]