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I get so scared that I am being fooled again.



We all do. It just takes time.

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I already know that when I do stuff on my own he gets excited by this and desires me more, I like myself more.



One of the best cures for the blahs is getting out and getting a life. It distracts, gets your mind off of the nonsense, boosts your confidance and PMA... And you can see all the residual plusses.

Hope you are having a good day.

[color:"purple"]Nevanna[/color]