Thanks for your replies. I get so scared that I am being fooled again. that he is just appeasing me by being home out of guilt. I need to make some changes. I am planning on thinking about this tonight and deciding what my goals should be. I already know that when I do stuff on my own he gets excited by this and desires me more, I like myself more. If I did get myself looking and feeling good I don't think I would have anything more to worry about, my man loves a driven woman. I don't believe he would stray again. I am going to really think on this take you guys good words and start my own thread tomorrow to chart my progress. I have such a hard time being positive both in myself and my sitch. I alwys think I am not doing a good job so I quite. So many more strides need to be made on my part. Confidence is magnet for my H. I should be trying for at least that reason even if I can't ge past my own fears to get better for me.
