I'm not going to list all of my threads like I have done in the past...I don't feel defined by them anymore. If someone wants to read the whole story, you can find the complete list on the front page of the thread above.
Stats:
me: 24
H: 28
M: 2 1/12 yrs
R: 4 1/2 yrs
no kids yet, but planning on it in the next couple of years
Not much going on. H is leaving for San Diego early in the morning. I got pretty upset earlier. Four days isn't long...and only really two without seeing him...but just the whole idea of him being gone is getting to me right now.
I asked H earlier if he had read my threads, and he said no. He saw me typing here, I switched screens, and thought that I was "writing something bad" about him. I asked him if he thought I said mean things about him on the BB, and he nodded. I told him it was more about me, about how I think/work/analyze, and for him not to worry. I offered to print them all out of he wanted, but he said that he didn't. So...answers that mystery. H is just better at dealing with people than I am, so he must have just figured out what to do to reassure me. (Maybe too much Oprah? I know he was watching it the other day.)
So...pretty uptight about H leaving tomorrow morning. Not his fault, though. He has offered all kinds of things to help me--did I want to stay in, did I want something from California, to take me on vacation later, etc--but I'm just not feeling any better. I can't wait for this to be over with.
I know he was watching it the other day.) 
