Hang on to the good that is NOW. You are waiting for a shoe that NEVER has to drop. I really thing the worst is behind you and that you get to affirm to yourself daily...

"NG loves me and good things happen to us!"

Easier said than done and I do not want to make it YOUR fault that you are having difficulty. I just want witness and validate for you that he is really coming 'round the bend.

He is a very lucky man.

maya