KMFLA--great to hear from you and that things are improving.
Slowly, I liked the "Erotic Mind" post. Regardless of what was going on between you and H before the A, do you think his feelings/resentments from childhood were part of the erotic allure for him, somehow? I'm not a psychoanalyst, but I recall you mentioning this before. And--well, that part is simply out of your control. Except insofar as you are able to keep a certain amount of....mystery.....going into the future.
