Hi Pam, KAW - It was a lovely, relaxing weekend, we had some visitors who kept us busy and kept us generally entertained
KAW - I hear what you are saying about the 'new' Slowly - and will implement something soon, once I'm comfortable NG is out of his fog, or should I say misty edges of the fog?
In a rare moment of sharing, he confessed that until recently he had been holding on to the thought of ex-ow and the a as 'something special' that he will look back on. Turns out that in the past couple of weeks, he has discovered from 'reliable' sources that she had been taking him for a ride, up to the point in the summer when he sent her THAT final email. NG tells me he now sees the a for all its ugliness, is mortified that he could have put me through it, does not think sorry even begins to cover it, what do I want him to do etc etc.
I know this man, and I just need to give him some time to get used to his latest discovery about ow.
BUT, he still does not know why he went down this path, does not think it matters. So my friends, our journey continues. I honestly believe that for NG and I, the why is critical. And for as long as he is afraid of confronting his own demons, I fear he will not be comfortable in any relationship.
It was a good chat, we both got emotional, but we did not flog the subject to death. I guess I need some space too, to process what all this means. Obviously there has been some contact in the past week, but it honestly does not seem like good contact. NG was way too bitter for that.
I'm so glad you all will be back from the holidays today, I really need some input
