Hey, that word has the same meaning as despotic. I specially love sesquipedalian.
Regarding my situation, which keeps recidivating, we had a very short discussion in bed last night which was instigated by her weeping while in regarding her thinking that she wasn't doing well in school, "she started college so she can get a profession as a dental hygienist", english being a 2nd language makes it tough for her so naturally I help and end up doing most of her essays and when she took a test prep last night, she didn't do too good, I'm babling again, where was I??? Oh, yes, anyway as we lay in bed I can hear her weeping and I ask why are you crying and she proceeds to tell me it's about school and fear that she is not going to make it, I try to encourage her and after a minute or so I ask her to come over next to me, because I wanted to give her a hug which I thought she needed but her response was most disburting, she tells me to go to sleep, I lost it, told her we are done, we are incompatible, I'll find someone that will make me happy and told her to do the same. Her response was to go ahead. So that's where am at. I don't know what the future brings, but it doesn't look good.
