GREAT NEWS!! I feel like god convicted him and used my poem to do it. He called today out of the blue in tears. Said he was freaking out over in korea and he wants to come home that he misses me and our kids. He was really upset and crying pretty hard. Then he started to talk about the first poem I wrote entitled please. The one he didn't appreciate. Well he said reading that poem really hurt him because he didn't realize the extent of my pain untill reading that poem and felt incredible guilt and it was an eye opener. He said when he gets up the computer is getting put up. He said he only wants to bring it out when he has to leave to go over seas to keep in touch. That his marriage was much more important than always being on the computer. See this used to be a major complaint of mine was we never spent time together because he was always online. we never talked. Before we got the computer we talked all the time and would play games in bed and laugh and entertain eachother. I told him I missed not having anything but eachother for entertainment because when we first met there was no tv to distract no computer no playstation 2. We would just sit in bed for hours every night together because even tho we had a tv we didn't have an antenna to get any local stations and didn't have the money for cable. Anyways, I am babbling. He said he misses me over and over and how could he have been so stupid. He just kept crying and he said he tries to keep busy and distract himself from wanting to be home but first he read my poem then he ended up with some kind of virus and was bed ridden and had nothing to distract him and kept thinkin about the poem I wrote and the more he thought about it the more he hurt and the more he began to realize what the reality of it all is. I just remember trying not to cry myself and for the first time in a year I relaxed and felt like I could breath again. All of the hurt and anger I had been feeling eased away
