Karen,
Why the downturn in emotions?

He initiated (you couldn't), you initiated....then what?

What were you wanting or hoping would happen that didn't happen that has you upset?

I'm not saying you shouldn't be upset, I'm just saying that from reading the post I couldn't see it. I'm confused!

Fill me in...

And as far as him coming home, try to stay as positive as possible. Have a drink if you need to.
Are you any good at acting as if? I think this would be a good time to employ that technique and help to establish new patterns between you and H.
It sucks to keep going back to the same old thing, over and over.

Honey