I'm glad your H said yes to go away. I hope the sitter works out. I have two thoughts. The first is about when you hear a song and you think what song makes your husband think of her. Well that thought is not real. Meaning it didn't happen, you don't know if any song would make your H think of anybody. When our imagination starts to go down a negative way think of it as a weed, pull it and throw it away. This isn't easy since we know weeds keep coming back, but if you keep at it, there will be room for flowers to grow. You have enough to sort out without our minds imagining situation that may have happened. If this didn't make sense sorry. The second thought is about finding ways to make you happy. Start really small. Use a favorite bath soap, do your own laundry first before everybody else's, buy yourself fresh cut flowers because their pretty, get a massage. You nurture other people in your life and its always hard to do that for yourself. Good night, Jennifer
