i think she responds in her languages: candy from grocery store where she works. if i ask her to refill a prescription, she'll come home and say here i got this for you. Sometimes she'll watch a football gme with me or sometimes rub my forehead.
Sometimes when we go to bed she'll pull me in close to here when wer're spooning and then 45 minutes later she won't even let me get close to her. i try not to take it personally. i'm not sure she 's ready to have uncomfortable conversations again.
i guess my real fear is that our sex. R will never come back and i''ll have to choose: stay in an unsatisfactory R or leave and live with consequences. ("well bob, i really would like to see what's behind door #3"). As to this morning i don't know what set me off. haven't had a day that bad since i stopped therapy 6 wks. ago.
i can't shake the feeling of being played but i'm probably just projecting.
