It seems like a seesaw. i'm pretty sure i knowher love languages. they're 1. receiving gifts and 2. acts of service. So i do plenty of these. my languages are physical touch and quality time. i don't gert much of either. she knows these are important to me but simply for some reason is unable to provide them. yesterday she was off, which is a rarity. she slept in so i did some chores. When she got up i was ready to rake some leaves. her work called so she was on the phone with them for about 1.5 hr. which worked out since i had yard work. by twelve i had all the chores done, we watched a football gme together.
she told me she was going to start dinner at 4 so we could eat early. we ate and were done with everything. when i came in from taking the trash out she was taking a bath. she called me and said to warm the bed up with that come hither look. then she came in and said her stomach was bothering her. So i figured it would be better another time when she was feeling better.
it's just the effort required to hold onto myself is so high that i'm emotionally exhausted and then become susceptable to depression.
i guess its just part of the process. thanks for asking.
