Karen,
How funny, I was sitting here sipping tea as I read your reply.

Hairy-yes I know I need to lighten up.

Here are my feelings in a nutshell: I do not trust him.

I do not trust that he takes this seriously, that he will meet my needs and that he shares the goal with me of creating a great sex life.
His words and his behavior never seem to mesh.

I suppose that until I trust him to hold up his end....OR, he EARNS that trust by doing just that...that I will continue to spaz out.

I realize that I am controlling the situation with my anger. I want to abdicate that responsibility and have him take his up 50%.

I want, I want, I want.


NOP,
YOu know, one question has been bobbing around my brain since yesterday. WHY do I need him to want me.
Why, indeed?

I can't come up with an answer to that one and it is driving me crazy. I believe I have communicated this to him as best as I can, but as Corri pointed out, perhaps I am not doing that hot of a job if he still doesn't get it.

Thanks all.

Honey, who is attempting to channel her inner MamaHD and lighten up, calm down, realize that this shall pass (as it always does) and to be gracious and grateful for what I have. Amen.
LOL