NOP, I have expressed it to him in those words countless times, as clearly as I can. I can tell you, though, that he continues to think it is due to some vain womanly need to feel beautiful and desirable. Which.......it is, partly. But if that were all it was, I would head out on the town and bask in all the male attention I could attract!
I don't know WHY I need him to want me and I don't know how to express it to him. Frankly, at this point, I'm not sure it would make a damn bit of difference.
Look, I am married to a person who would rather withhold something that I asked for than give in and do it. Is this really someone I want to try to communicate further with? Is this really the type of person that I give a rat's ass whether he gets what I am all about or not?
If his pride is that goshdamned important to him, then let him ML to that, alone.
I'm outta here. Going to take the kids for a playdate and act like my life is hunky dory! And, actually, getting out of here will do wonders for my state of mind. Then I get to come home and fix H a marvelous steak dinner that I promised him before I found out that I've been making an ass of myself for several yrs now, trying to entice him with something that he doesn't give a rip about.
