Lass, The appointment is made. I am anxious to see if everything checks out okay with the cyst on his head and I also inquired about the T test. Although the nurse said that (this doesn't make sense to me) he will have to bring that up with the doctor himself. I can make the appt about the growth on his skull but I cannot say, Yo doc check his hormones while you're at it.
So I will have to rely on H to bring it up. Somehow I don't see this happening. He might if I pitch a humongous fit right before the appt but I will not do that. He is a big boy and if he has truly had an epiphany, then he will know that I am serious about this and will act accordingly. I will tell him that it's up to him to bring it up (which will probably cause a fight in and of itself) and hope for the best.
I cannot begin to describe my feelings when asking him to have this checked. I felt SO bad. As if I was saying, You are definitely broken, now go get checked out. Or, You MUST have low T cause you don't act very manly.
It felt hurtful of me to be saying this to him. He received it very well, I have to give him his props, but I still felt like sh*t even saying it to him.
Since then I have felt this need to pump him up..tell him how masculine and manly I think he is. And he is! But I have resisted that urge because it would no doubt have a false or manipulative ring to H.
I am nervous about telling him that I have made this appt, since things are going soooooo well, and we have a hot date tonight (the honeypot's gonna see some oral action for the first time since..what...SPRING??) but ya gotta do what ya gotta do, right.
