Cinemanymph Thank you. I really needed that, I know that sometimes no matter what one person can and will do, if the other person already made certain plans that they are happy with, there is no way of reconciliation. I just hope that one day (preferably soon) I'll get out of the rot, the love that I still have for him will not hurt me but seem more like a good memory, something to cherish and not something I so desperately want to get rid off at his point.
