I can identify with how you feel. I don't initiate either, because I want him to feel he wants me. Sure, he initiates about once every month and a half, when HE feels the need or maybe its that he is afraid I will leave if he doesn't. I have struggled with this for months now. I have not forced him to face HIS demons. I cannot make him face them, but I can push him in the right direction, if he wants to keep me. I don't know when that will happen, me forcing him to face it all, but it will eventually. I feel for you, I really do. Its so hard to tell the person you love and are married to that things just are not right.