Thanks for you post. I think I made the right decision in not pressuring or tempting H to come down, I feel so much more tranquil. I went to bed at a reasonable time last night and got up later than usual, so I feel relaxed this morning.
Last night H emailed again, to answer a question I had asked him. I aim to keep up with friendly and light emailing back and forth.
I have started getting the rejoice ministries emails. I am not a religious person, but I have understood that dropping the anger and blame will 'prepare' you for any eventual turning around on the part of one's H, and might even precipitate it. Who would want to return to an angry and bitter spouse? They stress this point in their emails.
But in order to drop the anger/irritation etc, I also need some ME time to collect myself and attend to other preoccupations on my mind these days. I am a little too fragile to manage a complete AS IF weekend in the face of anger or selfishness from H. Best to be with him when I am UP and not wobbling!
So, back to getting the house in order for my guests' arrival and looking forward to a fun weekend.
Livnlearn
"The unexamined life is not worth living" - Socrates
