Quote: I'm curious - if you met H through friends for the first time, how would you find him? How do you think he'd find you?
Well, if we are talking about last weekend, I would not have been impressed by H. I would have found him arrogant and selfish, mostly.
I would have found myself a little lacklustre too. Drawn looking, tired, downbeat. I had had a hard week with D, with her school meeting, lots of cancellations and no shows with students, somehow everything conspiring to be negative, and my patience wearing thin, I didn't lose my cool or anything, just felt WEARY. I didn't start out the weekend like that, it just got that way after the lack of response from H, I guess.
Can't believe that the person that I loved for so long and who loved me could be behaving like that cold distant person in front of me, but yet content to be in my home. Being so close to our daughter but shunning me. There's no worse rejection, except the rejection of one's kids, perhaps.
And the knowledge that anything too positive or friendly from my side will be interpreted at trying to get H back, and therefore as sly and not kosher as far as H is concerned. Like being too much fun is "pursuing".
Any ideas?
Livnlearn
"The unexamined life is not worth living" - Socrates
