Looking backward...but only to move forward

[sage]

Pam, Thanks for the visit!

Wonka, I'll try to get to your thread. I noticed that Ellie's over there so how much could I add??

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Still feeling cruddy today. If possible, I actually feel worse. Cough, some just overall aches, blah, blah, blah. I had school last night but left halfway thru. Got home around 9 or so and watched football with h until 10:30. Went to bed and tossed and turned and coughed for hours.

h was great. He brought me water and medicine, came to check on me a couple of times, etc. He's being very sweet especially since he's not feeling so hot himself!

I slept a bit longer than usual this AM but came into work. I don't have too many meetings so that helps. I'm taking a half day tomorrow to have an afternoon "date" with h. He planned it which I love.

So, why am I feeling so crappy emotionally? I'm bristley and sad and mad and arrgh! I cried all the way home from school last night just because. I felt myself distancing from him this AM -- a la feeling leery and scared and self-protective. I don't know...my senses are on overlaod and I'm not liking what I'm feeling.

I'm sure it's mostly being sick and feeling tired. The holidays screw me up, too, especially since I'm staring down spending a few days with my mother. Oh, yah, not sleeping well and a lack of exercise to add to the mix.

Note to self...relax, get better and NO crazymaking!

Sage