Looking backward...but only to move forward

[sage]

Hi all,

H starts a very important interview in about 1 minute..please send communal good vibes!

I'm finishing up a LONG day at work...meeting h after his interview for a drink and apps. I hate to say it but I think I AM coming down with what he has...I felt like absolute crap until I finally took some Advil (duh) and now I think it's starting to kick in.

h seemed surprised that I wanted to meet him...or maybe he was just needing reassurance? I've been having a hard time knowing the best way to react to him while he's been sick...otoh I just want to comfort him and take care of him but I think that was overwhelming/not validating? so I've been more calmly loving but not really focusing too much on his illness (well, I've been focused on it but not trying to "fix" it)...oh, I don't know...I'm partly getting messed up here because I remember an email from ow to h saying "I want to take good care of you when you are sick 'cause you take such good care of me".

ARRGH.

Remind me again that I don't have to be perfect OR do everything that ow did just as she did it...he's with me, right?????

Off to dinner (yah, he's with me).

Sage