I can't say I "resent" him because I am the one that let him leave. I chose NOT to go after child support because I didnt want to HAVE to send my 2 daughters half way around the country on any given holiday. Plus I was more than able to take care of them without his money. I just had this thing...that I didnt want him in their life in the form of money....I would have never turned him away from them had he have chosen to see them but ...he didnt want to intrude on what he thought was a more stable life. The girls grew up loving thier father and respecting him despite his sometimes bad choices,
I have tried explaining the trust issue with H but he just doesnt get it....yet anyways. There are days when I just want to be stupid and do something, anything to break HIS trust so he knows how it feels. I just can't do it though. I love and respect him and our marriage to much to run off and find my "sex" somewhere else with someone else. Not in me to do.
I will try the list POV and see how that flies....right now something has to give....
Yes actually my ultimatum was and is about sex... I truly believe that our marriage and friendship is and can withstand all of the above stated issues... but sex has to be included in that.
What is the point of getting married and all....if it isnt to be able to have ALL of it. The emotional and physical bond that marriages bring. I might as well be living with a room mate right now.
