It has been awhile since I posted and my last one I believe said that things were looking up in my world, H and I had made some progress. Well, now that was about 3 weeks ago I believe and two days ago I said to H , " that there needs to be serious changes in our R by January or I am leaving....." And I meant every word I said....
BUT!!!! Now how do I go about allowing myself to accept and see those changes. I am so hurt and so disgusted with and by my marriage right now.
I would love to be able to go see a C , however right now financially we just DO NOT have the money to do that. I wake up every morning and read everyone's posts here and I have read SSM and PM.
I am trying to make changes within myself and find the things that must be lacking in our marriage...but no matter what I do..... it isnt good enough.
Any advice would be great...
Suzy.. Who isnt so sure marriage is all it is cracked up to be???
