Journey, I think that if our night goes smoothly and it is not past nine o'clock and the baby falls asleep and doesn't want to nurse, etc etc, he will then:
Tentatively initiate. There will be no great show of passion but he will follow through on his word if all goes well. It will not be earth shattering sex..nothing out of the ordinary..but it will be nice and we will connect again. I believe the awkwardness comes in b/c he knows I want so much more out of our M in terms of passion and this freaks him out and makes him feel inadequate.
Then the next night he will want to do it again, only this time he will feel more comfortable with the idea and there might be passion and/or something different (oral, for example).
The next night he may want to do it again and it will be much like the last night. He MIGHT even show some sign of desire beforehand. (the more sex we have, the more comfortable he gets with the process..)
Then he will want a night off and may even start acting weird or standoffish in order to make his wishes WELL known. If it goes longer than 4-5 days with no sex then we start the cycle all over again, with the first time being awkward and devoid of passion and then slowly getting into our groove. If we manage to hook up before all the magic has completely worn off, then there is a greater chance that it will just be two people coming together normally.
Whew. How was that for an answer!
I know we are supposed to not technically do this...but look, I have been doing this with him for over 2 years now. I KNOW THE ROUTINE.
I was thinking this morning that if I don't like this routine (and I really don't, although it's not awful or anything) that I need to do something drastic to bust it up. I'm still mulling over ideas..
