I have often caused trouble in OR by insisting on R talks, or even talks on other contentious subjects, in the wee hours. If it's been that way for you, then this sounds like a good baby step.
And the realization that S is not inching towards the door but maybe you are is great. I got to the point where I needed to come to this BB because I was acting without thinking. Eventually I will get the kind of self awareness that you're talking about in this post. Thanks for mentioning it.
K
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