Hello...Heavyheart here. I was going to make up some great excuse for why I haven't posted in a long time, but basically I think it boils down to I'm just feeling SOOOOO burned out from working on this whole SSM thing. I don't know if DBrookie is still around, but he used to post a lot about how he had been LD and his W had been HD and then they kinda reversed. I can almost see that happening with us (well, me becoming LD that is - I don't think H will ever be HD)!
Last night I was sorting through some pictures and came across a vacation we took a few years ago. It was just the two of us, no kids, and H made a huge effort and we ended up ML almost every day. It was HEAVEN (even almost made up for our sexless honeymoon). I was looking at the pics and I started to cry because I was just so happy and in love with him then - and it was not ALL about the sex but about us being together and meeting each other's needs. Compare that to now where I have really pulled back emotionally from him - even when we have the opportunity to do something alone together it is more out of obligation on my part (like our recent anniversary) and there is little hand-holding or affection.
Anyway, I ran across PM while I was dusting my bookshelves this morning and I thought of you all and just wanted to say hi.
