Hi Sage,

It really needs to be me pull myself out, and I think I am getting a little better but it still needs lots of work.

I do still struggle with the "gray", black/white is easier to figure out! But I prefer "gray". Just gotta keep working to get there.

My doctor is quit a ways from me and I would like to find a therapist closer to home.

I left S a vm asking about referrals but didn't hear back from him.

After this weekend there is no way I would still be on the insurance. It really was bad. D was yelling wildly at me and that is the last we spoke to one another. I think that I am grieving the finality of everything now. It seems to have happened in stages as our R and our interactions have changed in stages, till now there is nothing left.

The positive attitude is coming and going, but it will eventually be back I'm sure.

Pam

"We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned
so as to have the life that is waiting for us"