Healing from the inside out

[sage]

Pam -- I'm sorry to have not been on the boards when you needed a hug (a whack? no way). sounds like you did a great job of seeking outt he positives -- which doesn't surprise me at all!

I suspect you're right that it is the grieving process and that goes as it goes -- makes perfect sense to me that it wouldn't be full bore negative/sadness or full bore eupohoria. People are "gray" Pam, right?

As for finding a therapist...could you ask your doctor (could just be via a phone call) or that friend of yours that you've spoken with? If you still have insurance you can also call your insurance company for a referral but I think personal referrals are best.

Don't be shy about asking for a free 15 minute "consultation" to see how the chemistry is. That could even be over the phone and may really help you separate the good from the not-so-good.

Hope the positive attitude you found last night is still around this AM!

Sage