Healing from the inside out

[psluke]

Ok, I have been coasting along and not staying focused on anything too well. I have gotten lazy without Cal to crack the whip!

I think some of this needs to begin being worked on before I can really work on starting to like myself better.

I realized yesterday during a conversation with G that I took something he said and let it affect me the same way it did if David did something similar. With G I am sure my emotions were all based on my assumptions of what was taking place! Now I wonder how much of my interactions with David I possibly misread.

So my communication and processing rather suck, at least when I personalize and assume they do.

Things I want to change about me:

I don't suppose it is possible to just have a different brain, A LOGICAL ONE, installed.

1. My assuming rather than listening and NOT personalizing.

2. I talk too damn much, give people tons more info than they want or need. When I do this I think of Sage's box analogy. I always open mine and push it into people's face.

3. I am still trying to look for emotional support and distractions from the outside rather than focusing on the inside. This happens mostly at work.


Those are really big and I could go on and on, but believe if I can tackle those to an extent the results will trickle down. Aka..the butterfly effect.