Healing from the inside out

[psluke]

The number one thing I need to remember is when I physically feel bad I really go down emotionally!

I hurt really, really bad yesterday. Took a lot of pain medication. On the drive home I was hurting and had worked myself into a state where emotionally I felt so hopeless and lost that it was almost a physical pain and I was thinking I DID NOT want to live feeling this way.

I sat down last night and wrote up where I would want my posessions to go. It really was actually somewhat interesting to take stock of my life.

Here is my last line: Not much of value for a lifetime, but definitely some wonderful memories, good times & I believe some great and LOYAL friends. That is what I always valued the most in my life, the friendships.

Today the pain is less, the medication is less and I feel soooo much more positive. I really need to engrave that into my brain!