Healing from the inside out

[psluke]

It sounds like you've found yourself a great new place, with a lot of good people around! I'm so happy for you!

Thank you. You really have been wonderful help over the past year you know.

[psluke]

Well, ick.

Really hurting bad this month and that usually leads to a messed up head.

But I may have hit on something. I am guessing most of my emotional problems are because I don't like me. But, I am not sure how to change that.

[sage]

But I may have hit on something. I am guessing most of my emotional problems are because I don't like me. But, I am not sure how to change that.

Goodness...what a tremendous insight, Pam...and SO TOTALLY within your control! Wanna tackle some of this together? 'cause I'm thinking that that may have something to do with my own anxiety of late...

Sage

[psluke]

Ok, Ms. Sage,

I'm game if you are.

Where do we start?

[sage]

Where do we start?

Hmmm...my thought is to start with the best tool I know of -- DB'ing!!! And that would mean we'd start with step 1 -- a beginner's mind...

Do you think starting a thread focusing on DB'ing US would be a good idea?

IOW, I need to DB myself so that I can like myself more and want to spend more time with myself

[psluke]

So if we DB ourselves you think it will help us like ourselves?

I am betting the beginners mind is definitely a good place to start!

[sage]

So if we DB ourselves you think it will help us like ourselves?

I do...all the steps are there, right? disabusing ourselves of stale notions...setting some goals...figuring out what works (when do we feel good!) and doing less of what doesn't...the only hard part may be "asking for what you want" ... but maybe not...sometimes I feel like I need to give myself "permission" -- how 'bout you?

Sage

[psluke]

sometimes I feel like I need to give myself "permission" -- how 'bout you?

Very much so! Even then it doesn't always help.

[psluke]

The number one thing I need to remember is when I physically feel bad I really go down emotionally!

I hurt really, really bad yesterday. Took a lot of pain medication. On the drive home I was hurting and had worked myself into a state where emotionally I felt so hopeless and lost that it was almost a physical pain and I was thinking I DID NOT want to live feeling this way.

I sat down last night and wrote up where I would want my posessions to go. It really was actually somewhat interesting to take stock of my life.

Here is my last line: Not much of value for a lifetime, but definitely some wonderful memories, good times & I believe some great and LOYAL friends. That is what I always valued the most in my life, the friendships.

Today the pain is less, the medication is less and I feel soooo much more positive. I really need to engrave that into my brain!

[psluke]

Can anyone tell me what they went through getting off their ad's and is there anything that helps?

I tried to call my doctor this morning as I have now had two really bad depression days. The office is apparently closed and has moved. Looks like you would let your patients know something like that!!