Go to www.saveyourmarriagecentral.com and call Penny or post on that site also. Penny has walked in your shoes and will be able to give you some great insite.
Some of these sites have forums specific to your situation.
I applaude you for taking the right steps. From what you have explained in your post, you may want to treat your behavior like any other form of addiction. Just a thought.
You may also try reading the KLA Group threads on this bulletin board. They are near the bottom. These threads assist people in recognizing the behaviors and actions that lead to some difficulties. Also get and read Divorce Remedy. It will give you some insight and also familiarize you with the principles and concepts of this site.
You CAN have the relationship that you want with your husband. It will take some work, but everything worth having, doesn't come easy.
