Great to see you here. You may find yourself deluged by questions from people on the other side of the fence, so prepare yourself.
I myself forgave my wife for the affair immediately, but I was already going through the DB rollercoaster and knew that forgiveness is the only way to salvage any kind of relationship in this situation.
Quote: Right now I'm trying to find a way to keep on the straight and narrow without expecting anything to change on his part.
Do you really think this is realistic for you? You've confessed to being hooked on the excitement and rush of an affair. I can't see you making this work without changes in your husband. The good news is that you CAN make real changes in him, but you have to be committed to it. If you pick up a copy of "The Divorce Remedy", you'll find a lot of solid techniques to help turn things around on your own.
You say this is your 2nd affair. How long did the 1st one last, and why did it end?
