I heard about this sight from a friend and decided to check it out. Every situation I have read about, the member is the proposed victim. Well, I plead guilty. I am the victim(izer). I have had 2 A. My H doesn't know, and I'd very certainly like to keep it that way. Why do I want to keep it that way? So I don't ruin his life, as he knows it, just for the sake of "the truth". I am trying to get out of the 2nd affair right now. But it's not as easy as some may think. Emotional ties form and you start to depend upon this person for your happiness, and a break from the hum-drum of every day reality. Some people drink, some people get high...well I get lost in "He wants me" high. I'm not going to try to justify any of my failures. I just want to see if anyone can help me get off this rode of infidelity. For some reason (I'm still trying to figure out why) I really struggle with the mundane of every day life, and find excitement in being found desirable. If I saw this desire in my H eyes, I would be all his. Right now I'm trying to find a way to keep on the straight and narrow without expecting anything to change on his part.
