I bit the bullet on Monday night and called ow's H. I only talked with him long enough to give him an email address and to inform him that his wife was having a long term. (I already knew that he knew about the affair, what I didn't know was if he knew it was still going on).
We have emailed several times since then.....I CANNOT believe how much I did not know. I really feel like I was duped these past 4 1/2 years. I just feel like such a fool for not being suspicious when so much was going on under my nose.
My H has even called ow's H and they have exchanged several emails. ow's H sent me a couple of the emails....can I say what a pompous a$$ my H was in those emails??? What an absolute holier-than-attitude he had. urghhhhh
Ow's H has pictures and actual email correspondence, as well as notes and letter between H and ow. I think I will be seeing those soon. Ow has even admitted to infidelity at a different time than H told me about.....it just all builds my case for divorce on grounds of adultery.
I really have tried to save this marriage, but I am at the end of the road. The knowledge of more details of the affair is helping me to see just how low my H sunk. He is NOT the man I once knew. And I am beginning to realize more and more that he is not a man that I want to know.
Until those i's are dotted and the t's are crossed I cannot see me giving up on my M. But at the same time, after finding out the magnitude of the lies and deceptions of H, I honestly don't know how it would be possible to trust him again.
As strange as it may sound, I really do think God is watching out for me in His unique way. There is no way I could have survived all these details at the beginning. So, He is giving them to me in doses that I can handle.
