Unfortunately my heart and mind are not on the same page. My heart tells me to keep on hoping while my mind says it is over. Someday I will get my act together!
I went dark on H this week and did not contact him at all. He did call on Wed. night and then again tonight, and we had nice conversations both times. H is picking S15 and I up at 5am to head to a weekend long swim meet. He has also gotten us tickets to a monster truck smashing event for tomorrow night. All in all,I am sure it will be an interesting weekend.
I seem to do OK during the week when there is no contact with H, but this being together all these weekends is a killer. After this weekend, S15 had at least 2 more swimmeets before the season is over. Then there will be at least 3 months before any more meets. Although it would be easier for me for one of us not to go to son's meets, son would be tremendously hurt and disappointed if one of us was not there. So, I am trying to not create too many waves with H before the state meet in March.
I got my bill from L tonight and noticed there was a charge for sending paperwork to the clerk of courts. Does that mean it is now public knowledge and will published in the paper?? If so, I guess we had better find a way to let the kids in on the fact that a D is in progress.
