It is completly allright if you are still hoping that there is a miracle to save your M. It can happen.
As you said, my prayer now is also asking God to grant me peace. I am not praying for my M to be saved anymore. My soon to be ex W made the decision to leave everything behind and start a new life with the om. Nothing I can do about it. However hurt I am, I have to let go and move on with my life.
