The past couple of weeks have been very difficult with all the "anniversary" dates.....
2 years since finding out about EA/PA Christmas 26th anniversary D19 birthday New Years almost 3 years since the IDLY speech
But, at the same time it was one of the best holiday seasons I have had in a long while. To top it off, H "moved" back home right before Christmas and, for the most part, things between us are better than they have been for several years.
I am looking at this as my time to build up both my emotional and physical strength to continue on the path that has been set in motion.
D24 and fiance were only home for a few days at Christmas and D19 and D22 both leave on Sunday to go back to college. Since H was only home to give the the kids a "good" holiday, I expect he will be moving out again this weekend.
But, the kids did have a good time at home and there was almost no animosity between H and I or between any of the kids. I really did try to take the high road and let H enjoy all the love and warmth the surrounds the kids and I, and he seemed to love being here. Although I do feel that letting him come home and not telling the kids he had filed for D so they could enjoy their time at home was the right thing to do, I sure do hope this set-back to my emotional well-being was worth including H in our lives again.
I see L on the 11th to sign the adultery/mental abuse/cruelty charges. Since H, S15 and I going away next weekend for a swimmeet, I have asked H if it was OK if I was a couple of days past the "30" days in getting the papers back to him. He sounded fine with that.....although he knows nothing about the mental cruelty part.
