Lettie....hope you have a wonderful Christmas and enjoy the time off...
HOn,....this taking one day at a time, looking out for ourselves and our kids is getting kind of old. I am bound and determined that next year will be better (it certainly can't get much worse).
I am actually doing pretty good. I don't feel anger, I don't feel hate, I don't feel love for H, rather, I feel more at a point of acceptance. I am still DBing and hoping that eventually things works while at the same time I am getting papers together, getting our assets appraised, etc. so I am prepared to go through with the D. It all really stinks, but the ball remains in H's court.
H called shortly after I got home from work and joked that I had actually gotten home at a decent hour. He also wanted to let me know that he was here after lunch....S14 had several friends over for lunch and H said he came over to clean up the mess he was sure they left. H described the mess and I did thank H for cleaning it up since I would not have been a happy camper to come home to a mess. Actually, it was very thoughtful of H.
We talked some more about the kids and I told H D22 would be home for supper along with D18, S15 and a couple girl friends that were visiting son from out of town. After talking awhile I did invite H for supper so he could see the kids. He seemed genuinely pleased with that.
H went on to ask if we could have a movie night at the house either tonight or tomorrow night. He had already reserved a movie that he thought we would all like. (I can not remember H EVER getting a movie before). I do know he wants to spend some time with the kids while they are home for break so I told him OK.
When H got here he immediately had to show me a couple more gifts he had gotten the girls. It is nice to see him so excited about helping with the shopping.
H helped with the cleanup/dishes from supper, took both the trash and recycling out, and asked if it was OK if he came over about 6 tomorrow night. I agreed and waved goodby to him.
For someone who wants a D so bad he sure seems to be hanging around alot.
