I was changing clothes for bed last night when H knocked and came into the room I have been sleeping in. With kind of sheepish voice he asked if it would be OK if he spent the night. I told him it was fine (and didn't even suggest we sleep in the same bed, which we didn't).
Then, around supper time tonight H called and said that we hadn't had a chance to talk about it, but was wondering what my thoughts were on him coming over for supper. I simple told him that I felt like I was in a quandary and didn't know what to think. H said he had kind of assummed that he would not be home for supper tonight, but would plan on it tomorrow night since MIL will be here. I told him it was up to him.....there was silence for many seconds until said he would not be here tonight. H did ask if there was a change in plans to let him know and he would do the same for me. I just said OK, see ya later, and hung up.
Over all it was a considerate call (H even volunteered his schedule for next week) and that is sure much better than tension filled ones.
Since H has basically been awol from this marriage for 3 years, I am not so concerned about the emotional/physical emptiness a D will bring. Right now I am very concerned about the financial aspect. After being a stay-at-home mom for 24 years, I just don't make enough to live comfortably on......and that is what scares me the most at this point in time.
