Lettie, I don't feel I have any choice but to remain "friends" with H until the D is final. I have too much to lose if things get ugly between us. However, just because I have chosen to remain on friendly terms does not mean I have any expectations. At this point, no matter what H does, he crossed that line and I am ready/willing to head full throttle toward the D. (But, like most of us here, I will leave the door open a crack, but there are a lot of hurdles H would have to jump over first and I just cannot see that happening.)

In the meantime, I really am wondering just what is going on in H's mind. Yesterday was another day at son's swim meet. H once again would brush against me every now and then, almost on purpose. After the swim meet we went to a Christmas gathering with all of his Aunts/Uncles/cousins. I had a nice time there. When we got back to my house, I swear H patted my behind. I was so shocked I didn't react at all, but rather kept on walking.

Then, I was headed to bed very early and told H goodnight. As I was coming out of the bathroom from washing up and was headed to bed, H stopped me. He said he assumed that since BIL is still with us for a few more days that it was OK for him to come here for supper. I told him that is what I assumed also. (It really is OK with me since BIL doesn't know H has moved out.....although why H hasn't told him is beyond me).

Anyhow, H then stepped even closer to me and told me that the bra I was wearing really looked good on me. (Now this is from a guy who has not given me a compliment on the way I look for well over 3 years!!) I just looked at him in shock and said thanks, although I was tempted to actually lift my shirt up and model it H then stepped away and said, "For what its worth, that bra really looks good on you". I just kind of giggled, said "Thanks Hon", went in the bedroom and shut the door. Where in the world did that come from?????

H called me tonight to tell me he and BIL were working on a project and would be late for supper. H's voice was cheery and there was a happiness to it. It was nice to hear that for a change.

But, no, I am not reading anything into that. Especially since things feel so much like they did in the beginning of Aug. and H told me that things had improved between us then because he felt that I had finally accepted that we were getting a D.

Thank goodness, other that my M, life is good.

Wishing