I had a very disturbing conversation with D22 a couple of nights ago. I was very upset because I had just come from H's office where it was apparant that he had spent several thousand dollars on "fluff", yet had not given me a penny this month to help out with the bills. I was not upset over the fact that H had bought stuff for the office, but rather that I was at the point where I had to ask (i.e. beg) H for money. H always makes me feel like a beggar asking for a handout.
Anyhow, D22 is seeing me as "weak" where H is concerned when she has always known me to stand up and fight for injustices. I just told her that right now H has something hanging over my head (D papers) and I am just biding my time. D22 then went on to say that she is trying not to take sides between H and I, but that for as long as she has known me, she has never known a time that I was wrong while H was right. She would trust my judgement over H's every time, and that she feels that I am doing my best in a bad situation.
The next day I had an email waiting for me from her that just said she was praying for me. How thoughtful!
H was his usual jerky self for supper tonight. He came home late, ate, then went back to the office. I am really being to think that all his time at the office each night is not actually "work". I have held off on the snooping, but I would love to see his phone records.
On a strange note though, before H went back to the office he did go downstairs and fold a load of clothes that had just finished drying. That is so unbelievably out of character for him.
