My, things are busy at SSM, but I just wanted to share with you my experiences this weekend. On Friday S4 and I drove a few hours to a resort and W and D6 joined us Saturday. Our room had two queen beds, and I said, "Mama and I sleep in this bed and kids in this bed." Well, to my astonishment, they did what they were told. I got to sleep with W.
She was tired at night, so we slept, and in the morning, when I was sure she was awake, I hugged her. She pretty much turned away from me, but we kept talking. She let me rub up behind her, and I had a good time of it.
This is of course not sex. We aren't even facing each other and we are fully clothed. But I really liked it. I don't know if she gets any pleasure out of it. Somehow I am calmed knowing she knows what I am doing.
Later that day, she commented, "You study sex too much. I see all those books." It wasn't said harshly. I don't hide the books, I want her to know I am taking an interest in our situation. I mentioned that I had made an appointment with a Japanese C and, while she was surprised, she didn't object.
I agree with GGB. I have been spending so much time focusing on sex that I have forgotten that what I really want is emotional connection with W.
