I'm less upset now, after noon. I feel the way I usually feel when she is on a rant against me: nervous and agitated. She called just now, wanted to get me to do some work for her. I didn't talk to her. Though this isn't a justification, she does refuse to talk to me when I call her and she is mad.
If I don't go home, I'll go straight to a hotel. Or better yet, I should go to the townhouse that we just purchased and bring a sleeping bag. There is no room in the office and I think I'd be arrested if I stayed here (it's state property.) I would certainly let her know where I am.
To go or not to go. I would need agreement that she take my needs seriously and discuss them at length, alone. On Saturday night, after she had agreed to sleep with me, she got D6 into the argument and D6 was crying a lot. Once D6 was in bed, she was asleep in 2 minutes, but W kept wondering, "Is she OK?" I deeply resent W dragging kids into this. Kids need to hear the same story from both parents. W agreed, then tried to back out using D6.
I understand that what I am doing is not entirely rational and not entirely without risk.
