Ok, ok I'll stop whining about the shirt, but you know what I really meant.Its the whole day I'd be missing with him. I don't know if I mentioned it before to you both but because of the reason he left (and I know Molliew, you said he is using it as probably an excuse and I am inclined to agree-all the signs still point to MLC) is some of the reason I am afraid to do things like go to these events is I am afraid he'll think that I AM out looking for a hook up (no way, I AM lonely , but it is HIS touch I am missing and it is waaay too scary to just go with anyone these days).My friend says if he DARES to use that you actually went to an event to try to be around things you like to do or thinks that the only reason you went there is to look for men as an excuse to finally end it-then he really IS the selfish a**hole we've all been telling you he is and LET HIM GO! I still have not called . My sister said (actually she said I was stupid for even wanting to call him, that I am gonna probably sit in the house till I die waiting for H to ask me to do something with him, and that I am wasting my time because he likes his life the way it is and it does not include ME) she said I should wait till Sunday cause what if he is doing something or he is at the biker event w/ friends or OW (1 or 2) and you interrupt and he is pissy ,now- YOU"LL be crying for the rest of the weekend.She also said that he treats ME like the OW, hiding me away. I said I disagree- OW gets the good behaviour from him, I bet SHE is not sitting home crying this weekend because he took his WIFE instead of her, right??? I have not heard anything about either woman for awhile. Sometimes I think what he isn't telling me is worse than the snippets I do get.
Molliew ,again, how the HELL did you do this?? Please be patient with me, its just that it seems he IS happy with his life the way it is, and if he missed me like he said he did a few weeks ago (before the D talk) then he'd be CALLING me, or wanting to do something with me ,RIGHT???? How long till "the new life " glamour wears off??? ARRRRG! I actually cried today at work, a co-worker said she was so worried about me an that I should not stay home this weekend, and then she hugged me. That made me cry. Everyone says WHY do you want this guy back? He treats you like you barely exsist now, then throws a pet name at you when he calls as insurance that if his life doesn't work out he can go back to the old life. Thats really hard to hear. Especially after 5 days of no contact with H.
